Remember what you did earlier today, or yesterday, or this week?
Remember how you tried to stop drinking but failed?
Remember how you tried to stop yelling at your kids but the next day, there you were, screaming about some toys you stepped on?
Remember how you tried to stop looking at porn but the Internet just sucked you in last night?
Remember how you lied about it to your loved ones? Saying you were fine, that you weren’t back to drinking or yelling or gambling or cheating or stealing?
God doesn’t want you now.
Look at you, you’re a mess. How could He possibly want to associate with you?
You think He saved you? And yet you act like this?
You think He’d ever want to save you, after acting like this?
You’re worthless. Why would the God of the universe want anything to do with you.
You taint His image.
You’re a worm.
Worse than all of that.
You’re a germ.
Perhaps you should just disappear.
No one wants to get sick from a worthless, no-good germ like you.
No one will miss you, anyway. Not after the way you’ve treated them.
I mean, can’t you feel the loathing in your wife’s eyes?
Can’t you see your husband doesn’t even look at you anymore?
Can’t you see that your spouse is your kids’ favorite now?
Can’t you see no one has texted you in the past week to see how you are?
It’s because they don’t care.
You barely exist now, anyway.
Why don’t you just end it?
Isn’t life too hard to carry on?
Always trying to be better.
So tired, aren’t you?
Even you are sick of yourself, aren’t you?
No one loves you.
Taunting, tempting, guilting.
They tell us we’re worthless. They show us our sin and cloud out any hope of rising above it.
I don’t want to join the depression/suicide discussion surrounding Robin Williams.
I simply want to remind myself and my fellow Christians that the mental and spiritual battle of depression is real, and all humans, at some vulnerable point in their lives, have experienced it to some degree.
Instead of arguing on the validity of someone’s depression, believers should continually preach the love and joy and hope in Christ Jesus. He is the sunbeam who can burst through the cloud of our sin. He eliminates the darkness with His presence alone.
Yes, we are all sinful. We all struggle under the weight of our guilt.
But God so loved us, He gave us His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, through whom we are saved and in whom we have hope of eternal life with Him, resulting in unending joy.
We don’t have to try to lift our guilt on our own. He has washed our sinful stains with His blood. He has done the work for us, if we simply believe.
Let us never stop praising the work of God, so that others will hear, be saved, and share in our God-given love, joy, and hope!
“I hear the Savior say,
Thy strength indeed is small!
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me, thine all in all!
Jesus paid it all!!
All to Him I owe.
Sin had left a crimson stain;
He washed it white as snow!”